I will hold space for you
In the quiet of now
I think I have it figured out
But then it gets lost somehow
A memory, a photo, can easily
Take me away on a journey
Where everything real just melts away
In the ocean of my agony
I try not to drift too far
For I know that it does me no good
But for a moment I just need to feel
My own unique Motherhood
Today your absence is extremely loud
Like the horn that guides ships through the fog
And though I try to hold my head high and proud
Today I sink into the bog
As another wave passes
And the calm settles in
Like the ebb and flow of the tide
I try to wrap my brain around
How grief and resilience reside
Woven so tightly it cannot be seen
That both ends are clearly untied
And what a peculiar marvel it is
To see from the inside
That all I’m experiencing right now
Only exists in my mind
It leaves me to wonder
What else can I do, as
I will hold space for you