It’s been 6 years and I miss you like day 1. I expect that will never change. I’ve tried my best to put it all into words….well, some of it. I hope it helps all who read it, for we all are grieving in some way. We came here to learn about love and loss. I’m learning every single day.
If this book finds you, you read it, and it resonates with you, please help others by sharing the link and leaving a review on Amazon. I would appreciate this so much.
Many thanks,
Nancy Carswell
I purchased the book because it was posted on a Facebook group and to help me with grief ..it will be 7 months my son passed away on December 10 ššš he was only 25 years old
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Hello Anna,
I am so, so sorry for the loss of your son. Thank you for reaching out. I am 6 years and 6 months into my journey, and some days I am struggling also. You are in the early days of your new path, and all you need to do right now is breathe, grieve your aching heart out, and try to take care of your mental and physical needs. One day the burden will get a little bit easier to carry. Why? Because your son will send you the strength that you need to carry it. Because those around you that love you will learn (in time) what you need to be able to cope with your grief. Because one day you will discover that there is still love and light in the world and there is a place for you in it to fill the rest of your days. Because you have a story that is worth sharing, and one day you might even get the chance to help another shattered momma to feel not so alone in her grief journey. Some days I still ask Colton why he and I would choose such a path. Somedays I actually believe that I have at least some of it figured out. I’m guessing I won’t figure it out until I am where he is. Until then it’s up to you and I to find some joy as we live out the rest of our days for our boys…as I’m sure they want and expect nothing less from us. I hope your son sends you a memory today that makes you smile, even for a moment. –Nancy.
Hi Nancy,
Your book was recommended to me by my friend who lives in Campbell River. She thought that your book by its title would help me as well. I am a grieving mother of two (Denise, Feb 7, 2022 and Kyle Jan 16, 2023). My heart and soul are totally ripped and I do not know where to go from here yet. Like you, I managed to keep going and I kept up my job at Vancouver Island University. Now I am still trying to figure out how to keep moving. I have good things happening in my career but a lot of wounds to heal as an Indigenous person. I so connected with your story. Especially since my home base is Prince George. My husband and I own our house here and I have been here since the early 80s. He is the only one left standing as we all moved away for work. It is still my home base and I return on all my breaks. So as I read your story I had a strong visual of all the places you mention. We raised our two children here as well. Even the Hospice because we would buy their annual house lottery tickets in the hope of having some luck to support our son Kyle who lived and worked in Leduc and Edmonton almost right out of high school. Your son also left you on my birthday in 2018 and our son left us a day after my birthday.
I do not believe this is a coincidence. I am leaning more towards signs when interesting events come up now. I am believing that my angels are setting a path for me, now I have to keep working on the strength to find it.
As an academic, I just had my book (Drumming our way home) released on October 15th and I had the inaugural launch on Kyle’s 37th birthday on October 22nd. I brought my grandparents, Kyle and Denise along with me.
It is coming up to 3 and 2 years for them in the New Year and I am thinking about a legacy for Kyle as well. Denise’s passing was sort of expected but not so soon as she was ill for sometime while Kyle’s was not. There are still a lot of unanswered questions around Kyle which makes it harder.
I am interested in finding out the name of the psychic/medium if they are here in Prince George. I would like to try them. I went through the same in my search and I have seen a couple mediums and had my tea leaves read. None of these left me with very strong connections so I keep looking.
I took everything you shared to heart and what will resonate with me is GOAL. These four letters will help me to keep getting up everyday and putting one foot in front of the other.
From mother to mother, I wish you continued strength on your journey. You have a very handsome son and some amazing supports in your corner.
Best, Georgina M