A letter to my brother, Nov. 30, 2017

Colton Update

Hi bro, here’s a brief update

The Dr. doesn’t want to move him to Cochrane but it’s Colton’s wish to be with me so he’s trying to get his meds regulated so that he can manage without an IV. He’ll be on a fentinol patch and pills for the pain management and we have contacted our Dr. in Cochrane already.

We’re hoping for this to happen in a week or so. The oncologist told us he thinks he has several months left. He’s starting to eat more so he’s gaining a bit of energy so that’s good. The go fund me page has raised $6500 so far so that will definitely help. Also there’s an event planned at the pub by their place on the 17th with a silent auction, 50/50 etc. Thankfully he has loan protector insurance on his debt so he is in effect debt free, as this is important to him. He has signed a DNR. I have a copy. He and his girlfriend will likely have a small ceremony to marry once we’re settled, she wants that so bad. The cancer is the same Squamous Cell Carcinoma but has spread to his lung, ribs, vertebrae, liver and now skull. It is not in his brain. Although he is fairly short tempered on occasion he is ‘all there’ and wants family around. His father and step mom left to go home today but I’ll be staying to fly back with him so it had better be soon. They gave notice to be out by the end of the month. Randy will take back whatever he can when he heads back in a day or two. Work is so crazy heading into Christmas, I can’t believe I’m not there. Honestly I can’t believe any of this. Randy says this is just another River of Shit that we have to cross, but for me, there’s just a world without Colton on the other side of it. The body has an endless supply of tears, and the heart has the ability to beat while continually breaking. This is fucking unfair. No one should have to be in such pain or to witness their child trying to endure it. Love you, Nancy.

Colton never made it to Cochrane. We stayed 2 weeks in hospital, 2 weeks at his rental place, then a final 2 weeks in Hospice.

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